#26 Real Time Trust Fall / Daydreaming - Poem (6/13/23)

Daydreaming feels uncomfortable 

because I was taught that 

my time was my bread and butter, 

so I better not waste it. 

I lie awake at 4 am thinking 

about my day, past 

mistakes, and the rent due on 

Tuesday. Restlessness has become my 

best friend because I am not good 

at maintaining close friendships. 

I tell myself that it's ok, and yet 

at times I wonder if my lack of 

daydreaming also stems from my heart knowing that 

there is no one to spend my time with. 

Reflections:

It is interesting for me to reflect back on my poem "Daydreaming" I wrote two or so years ago when I had few close friends. I am so grateful to myself for putting in the time and effort over the past years towards cultivating more stable relationships now that I am experiencing a time in my life when having a support system of trusted individuals is more important than ever before. I think it is just another example of the way that sometimes we don't realize the importance of our "self-work" until life slaps us in the face and instead of falling on the pavement you experience a real time trust fall. 

until next time, with Love, the DLB