#44 my intuition is an anchor to my Truth: Reflections on the New Moon in Cancer and Nodal Shift (7/20/23)

The Cancer New Moon landed on Monday, July 17th, 2023, at 11:32 am PST. It was in opposition to Pluto in Capricorn. For me, this aspect heavily showed up as me re-examining the very familial foundation I stand upon and coming to terms with the fact that as an adult I am the authority in my life. As much as we chase after the thrill that comes with being older when we are children, it is quite fear inducing once we arrive here and realize this is it; there is no trial run to adulthood.

Cancer New Moon Affirmation: 

"Show up for what's showing up for you right now." 

(Farah Siddiq, IG: @farahsiddiq)

Shortly after, the nodes of fate shifted out of Taurus/Scorpio into Aries (n. node) and Libra (s. node) for a new 18th month cycle. 

Taurus/Scorpio axis nodal completion Affirmation: 

"Life doesn't always go as expected, but if we're lucky, we end up where we are supposed to."

(Harper Stewart played by Taye Diggs in The Best Man: The Final Chapter)

Aries/Libra axis nodal shift Affirmation: 

"Too late, this unavoidable confrontation is a long time coming, Toot toot bitch. It's here."

(The Hell Train Oracle Card - 666; Visons in the Liminal Space Oracle Deck)

New Poem: Mama Gaia

Just as it is a star’s destiny to shine bright.

And to blossom is a flowers fate,

like it or not.

 

As human beings, our authenticity is our birthright.

Our process of becoming a universal

love language.

 

The pulse of Mother Earth herself.

Reflection 

Lunar Cycle Themes Showing Up for Me:

• human being vs. human doing 
• you've got to feel your feelings to heal 
• divine mother/ mothering oneself/ the mother wound
• inner child healing/ self-parenting
• embracing new beginnings with a grain of salt 
• setting clear intentions for my emotional well-being
• tapping into my embodied wisdom
• "No" is a full sentence 

Right now, life definitely feels intense. During turbulent times, it is necessary for me to remember that my intuition is an anchor to my truth. For a long time, I struggled to understand how to even know what listening to my intuition feels like as a person who has suffered from a severe lack of boundaries, codependency, and chronic people pleasing throughout my life. It has always been a bit of second nature to think about others needs before my own and now that I am an adult, I very much see how that coping mechanism no longer serves me. The wake-up call for me was last year when I was planning my wedding and I had absolutely no idea what would make me happy, and once I did figure it out, how to assert my true feelings and be willing to disappoint others instead of self-sacrificing. Around this time, through navigating various situations including my wedding woes, I learned something important, anything that isn't a resounding yes, is a no. 

Since then, I see how, while I am willing to say no more often, I still explain myself far too much, too often, out of fear of being misunderstood, not liked, as well as in an attempt to dampen others disappointment and discomfort. So, this lunar cycle an update to my realization that anything that isn't a resounding yes for me is a no, is that "no" is a complete sentence all on its own. 

Inner Child Healing Shadow Work Activity

I have been watching some children's movies over the past month as both my life and Cancer season have left in me in my feels even more than usual. The ones I have watched thus far are Inside Out (2015), which I call "the emotions movie,"  CoCo (2017), Soul (2020) and Cruella (2021), all of which are so very heartwarming and healing to my inner child! I highly recommend checking them out if you haven't seen them yet as a fun, low-key inner child healing themed shadow work activity. 

Housekeeping 

And that is it for this round of reflection for this past lunar cycle. Thank you to everyone who checks these out. I plan to continue releasing new and full moon reflections approximately 3 days after the transit date. For me, this timing gives me time to do all of my personal lunar rituals undisturbed to more fully understand what energies have been coming through for me before putting out the blog post. 

until next time, with Love, the DLB